Sweet Married Life

wow, i could feel intense 'quickening' in my lower tummy today. It goes on and on for more than 15 mins so far. A record breaker. It makes my whole tummy rather ticklish. A kind of itch that I couldn't scratch and greatly welcomed. I simply loved this kind of feeling and in this pregnancy, i feel this much more intensely! What an active little kiddo. hahhaa ~~

This week, i am down with a sore throat, cold and a cough. Having problems going to deep sleep at night due to the irritated throat. The gynae did not wish to give me stronger medications for fear of harming the baby. So this time round, i guess I will need a longer recovery period of time. I am fine with that as long as i do recover at the end. It's very uncomfortable to be sniffing and coughing all over the place. I guess getting sick is the worst fear of all mums-to-be.

1 week and 6 days more to the dreadful day.

Little kiddo is 17 weeks old this week. I can feel his/her little movements on and off. Or is it really movements or maybe it's just my stomach rumblings?
*shrugs*

Will be going for dentist this weekend and another scan in 2 weeks time. Hope by then, we will know the gender. I really pray that everything will go on smoothly...that little kiddo will be normal and healthy >_<

I can't wait for the day which I can start shopping for kiddo's stuffs.

We started TTC this month. It's rather hard because Hubbie was sick just a week before the can-try days. As for me, being stressed out at work does not help much either. Nonetheless, we still go through the motion just for the sake of trying. This time round, I did not forget my dose of Folic acid.

Because of my bad experience in the first pregnancy - which has ended dramatically, I need to take more folic acid before I conceive now. Yes, i belonged to the group of people who cannot have a smooth sailing first pregnancy. I had accepted this and I shouldn't start blaming heaven or whatever.

We will just keep trying.

Is this a good year to get pregnant? As i tour around my campus, I realized quite a number of my fellow colleagues are pregnant. Wow, really envy them.

I would loved to join the pregnant crowd too but will I be able to make it?

Haven't been blogging here for a while. Some little updates of what's going on with my life:

• The new semester has started for almost a week and i am still getting used to the new class timings and the heavy workload.
  
• Hubby called in sick during lunch just now and he is off to see a doctor. Poor hubby, hope he gets well soon. I hate it when people around me get sick, especially those I really cared for. 

Me and my sis have a personal chat over MSN this afternoon. We took the time to share with each other our troubles and thoughts about woman's health in general. After letting her know my condition, I felt better. Truly better than better. Initially i thought of burying the bad stuffs within me. But i somehow blurted it all out when my sis shared with me her own personal worries.

I was amazed that i actually felt at peace after receiving such nice encouragement from someone younger than myself. Even though the future is unpredictable, but somehow it's good to have the support from someone in your family.

I was thinking and praying to have a small family in the future. Where the kids will continue to support each other when me and hubby grew frail and old.

I had been diagnosed with fibriods in my uterus. How unfortunate. In order to control it, I've done several researches. There are suggestions given to detox the liver but I do not want to eat stuffs which no one around me has taken before.

From now on, I am going to stick with the following:

• Eat more fresh fruits and vegetables
  
• Cutting out caffeine
• Exercising
• Taking nutritional supplements

Thinking

Sometime its good to have friends for support in bad times like this. When friends found out what happened few months ago, they were all very supportive and group by group, they came to visit me and cheer me on. No one mentioned why I made that painful decision to end it all.

Guess what happened is all fated. From that day on, I begun to treasure my friends and my loved ones more. I picked up cooking regularly, hoping to eat more nutritious food to build up my health.

I will only start TTC-ing more formally when my period gets more regular - I hope. These few months, my periods are coming all on the wrong day and my cycles can stretch from 24 days to 36 days like this month. Perhaps no eggs are even released regularly.

The amount of bleeding is quite heavy especially on my first two days. Everything doesn't seemed to be normal anymore. At times, I still encounter pregnancy symptoms like naseuosness, cramps etc... :~~(

I got many friends activities coming up in the next months, and this helps to cheer me up quite a bit.

When i was TTC-ing almost a year back, I hated the sight of menses. Because when the menses came, it simply means I am not successful at getting preggie. Ironically, this time, I yearn for my menses to come - month after month after that incident.

My cycles were like clockwork before, so it's easy for me to plan for a baby. But since then, it went haywire.

When it's late, I feel anxious for it to come. Every day, I will ask myself if my periods will ever get normal again. It's quite sad to think that one might have to try to conceive all over again. :(  And this time round, it's going to get tougher.

This month is my third month. The first signs of an impending period appear this morning and it was 10 days late. Still, there was a little hope in me that it's going to be alright..